It's always nice to be reminded that the things you do, no matter HOW you do them... you are doing them wrong. And people wonder why I have no self esteem....

It makes me realize, though, that I have no chance of getting certain things. I don't deserve them. So I guess at least it's a wake up call (as well as emotional short circuiting). I almost cried twice today at work, during calls, just thinking about things that have been said to me. And I did cry the whole way home. It's not fair. No wonder I have such a hard time letting people in.