I've been trying to figure out how to get past some of my issues; it's been a long process. Thanks to Sam for creating a list of things for me to do, which took a little bit of encouraging to complete, but definitely helped... and prepared me for what was about to happen.
Recently I bought myself a little book called a "Gratitude Journal," where you write something every day. There are pages with a writing prompt, such as "write about 3 things you find beautiful today," or "write down everything you are grateful for today," and some pages are simply blank, or just have a quote. So I've been writing in that each day, and it's a great reminder of just how great life is.
Also, I bought a 2-disc CD simply because of the title (terrible, I know!). But the title was: "Keep Calm and Carry On." It's all instrumental music which I enjoy, but it's more about what it represents -- keeping calm, breathing, relaxing, clearing your mind, and still moving instead of being stagnate like I had been for so long.
I also just bought a scrapbook kit, the theme is "Memories." I loved the styles of paper, the decorations it came with, and the quotes that were being displayed, such as "cherish yesterday," "live for today," and "dream of tomorrow." I haven't opened up the kit yet, but I plan to turn the scrapbook into a self-realization of just how far I've come in my own life, especially after moving to Madison, and I know that will really help me get my confidence back, and to be even more grateful for my life.
In addition, I found these decorative keys at Michael's that just... drew me in. Not sure what I will do with them, but they're old fashioned looking keys and they each have a word on them: Love, Secret, Heart, Memory, Journey, Life, and Dreams.
And lastly, I ordered 3 books online today that I believe will help me overcome at least some of my self esteem / trust / adandonment / intimacy issues. I should have the books next week.
Somehow, all of this is going to help me, with additional help from a certain someone that has been doing an excellent job of making me more comfortable in my own skin. :) I'm at a place in life where I've FINALLY realized that I DO deserve better, and that I DO have a lot to offer... you can call it "enlightenment" or whatever you want. I am finally on my journey toward a better, happier life than I had ever thought I could possibly deserve, and it's been extremely rewarding already ♥
"I'll go hide. If you're still there then you're still all I want..." ♥
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